| hey guys,
after this last spring retreat, i finally decided to change my controversial xanga username.
u can find me at xanga.com/hanluli =) |
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| black people are so cool.
i have a whole mess of reading to do for my class entitled "the african american liberation struggle: post WWII to Hurricaine Katrina"
all this talk about freedom is getting me all fired up even though it's 40 years later and i'm not black.
"We want freedom now, but we're not going to get it saying 'We shall overcome.' We've got to fight until we overcome." -- Malcolm X |
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| this time last year.. i thought i was the luckiest girl alive. maybe i still am.
ben bae's new multiplatinum hit speaks my heart at this moment.. except change all the female pronouns to male.
sometimes i still wanna feel
exactly what i felt before
what it was like back then
may i have that again?
here i am just thinking and laughing again
have u ever chased after someone that shined so bright?
u asked what it would be like to say " yea man, she's all mine"
blinded by the shining light
i lost track of my heart
my baby heart, so fragile, broke in half
have u ever wanted a beautiful relationship?
talking about forgiveness, patience, glory to our jesus christ
it was beautiful
but i guess i was still too young
but then again when will i be old enough to love
[pre-chorus i]
she's the only one that i see is true
but how many times did i tell the other girls "i miss you"
filling all the emptiness with temporary flings
but i'm also singing, "Jesus be my everything"
[chorus]
OH.. she will never know what my heart goes through
she can come and she can go but i know i can trust in You
teach me how to love You whole-heartedly
so i can say "You're more than enough for me"
have you ever convinced your heart what you're doing is perfectly ok?
and said "trust me man, God works in mysterious ways"
i find myself tripping over every bit of lying selfishness
God, please bring me back again
have you ever said "no, i will never fall for a girl like this"
then you say hi to her, call her, next thing you know, ah crap
i wonder what Jesus is thinking of me from above
i'm sorry but we just have to go our separate ways
[pre-chorus ii]
she's the only one that i see is true
but how many times did i tell the other girls "i miss you"
i get the chills when i hear God saying "am I not enough for you"
could you call Me instead of your girl tonight, just Me and you?
[chorus]
what is it that i want?
is it just a girl to call and feel loved?
oceans arise and my mind gets so unclear
questions come up, compromises everywhere
[rap interlude bashing high school relationships]
sometimes i still wanna feel
exactly what i felt before
what it was like back then
may i have that again?
He said, "patience my child trust in My plan"
mm.. initially when i heard this song i did a great deal of bashing. haha sorry. but.. i love it now.. it kinda grows on you eh? |
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| you are amazing! i LOVE LOVE LOVE how you are so real. and God is soooo proud of you.. like u have no idea how proud~!! haha.. and i love how you're fob.. but not.. like ur still hip.. and also how everything u TOUCH is on sale with additional 75% off and then an additional 15% and then additional 10% cuz the shirt is like damaged in some way.. awesome!
anyway.. that was besides the point.. God knows the depths of your heart. He will come and be beside you to help you through the "fire" together with him... even when it feels like "life sucks.. u know.. life sucks... like.. LIFE SUCKS" (sharon ngai). [i love how she utilized the rhetorical device of repetition to get her point across with a hint of unintended humor.] thelma.. i dunno what else to say... you're AWESOME! c'mone!! i wrote a whole xanga entry about you!!!
SMILE! =) |
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| today's meeting deserves a xanga entry
God is sooo good to us. God, how are u so good to us?
praise God for victoria ko. her courage and transparency caused a domino effect that affected all of our hearts and tonight i felt a genuinely genuine love for Jon and Sharon that i've never felt before. i don't know how to describe it. all i know is i'm in LOVE with God and his faithfulness to TCC despite our brokeness and disobedience and how we act "dandruff" [flaky] sometimes. ahhh... how could you be so good to us? |
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